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Well, here am I lying on my bed typing on my blog.

Yesterday, I was going down to J8 to catch a movie, and it had been a really really long time since I walked down the streets of Bishan, with an iPod plugged in to my ear. I actually missed and love moments like this, where everything just slow down and you can think/imagine/dream about life.

Though I'm not thinking much, I guess I've reached a certain stage of my life where I need to discover what am I existing for..? There is absolutely nothing in life I am particularly looking forward to, and I feel that I am existing for the sake of existing. Please do not be mistaken that I am sad or emo or feeling anything negative about it. I am just indifferent to many things. Well, I do have feelings, but they come and go so fast that I soon forget about them. I haven't felt intensely angry, happy, sad or any other feelings you can think of.. Maybe lonely, but it never get intense cause most of the time I'm surrounded with people.

I need something to kick me in the ass to get me moving, something new and exciting to spark up my amazingly boring life, but my greatest fear is that I will get sensitize to it, just like MRSA get sensitize by penicillin, and I will go back feeling empty and indifference as I am now.

My flight have been delayed from 2359 to 0450am.

5 hours of delay and 1 hour short of claiming my travel insurance.

Come on, bring back memories right? :) Everyone had this tune on their handphone once when they are still can't play mp3s.

I am going to put this as my ringtone for 1 or 2 weeks on the top volume just for the kicks of it. hahahah :)...

Darn... how does the non-polyphonic message tones sound like?

I am conditionally accepted into Bachelor of Science (Management) from The University of Manchester!

To be fully accepted, I must go through a gruelling 10 weeks "BMT" with SIM for a preparatory course from June to early August 08.

Which means I would have evening/Saturday classes 3-5 times a week in June/July period. :(



On another note, I was invited to my friend's place at "The Icon", and it was absolutely stunning. My aim is that within the next 5-10 years, if I still do not have a stable gf/wife, I want to buy a nice unit there.

I just finished my series of podcast from Ravi Zacharias entitled Balaam: The Angelic Devil, and it did set me thinking.

In this podcast sermon, Ravi was talking about 2 kinds of people in general,

1. People who don't believe in God, and behave in a way as though God never existed
2. Christians who goes to church every Sunday and claims that they believe in God, and behave in a way as though God never existed

Well, he feels better of the people of the first category compared to  the second, and I feel the same way too. Sadly though, I belong to the second category sometimes.

So what is it about Balaam? Balaam was a prophet whom God had given him a great power, that whoever he bless will be bless, and whoever he curse will be cursed. Balak, a Moabite king got to know of this Balaam, and decided to go get him and curse the people of Israel, whom currently is residing in the Moabitian land. So he send his official and offer him a price to go curse the people of Israel. Like good Christians nowadays, Balaam said he'll pray about it, and pray he did. God of course said No, and he told them no.

Well, we would thought that this is the end of the story, but however, Balak official's came back with another proposal, with more money involved. Few question to raise, first, why did Balaam even want to pray about it when the answer seems so clear, and second, why would they want to come back again with more to offer? Ravi's and my guess is that on the first offer, Balaam's "No" seems weak, and  they feel that with more money, they can buy him over. So Balaam again went to pray about it, and seek God. Of course God said "No" again, but this time, God allows Balaam to go with the Moabites. Well, of course God didn't want Balaam to curse the people of Israel, and most certainly, He would not change His mind, but He did give everyone of us, Balaam included free will, and if Balaam really wants to go, He allow him to go.

So Balaam went along, go up a mountain, set up alters and sacrifices, and told Balak, he'll have  to pray again and see if God have changed His mind. God went on and put words in Balaam mouth, and went he come out of prayer, he started blessing Israel instead of cursing them. Of course, Balak was very angry, but after a while, they came into a consensus of trying it again on another mountain. The cycle repeats for about 4 mountains until God made it really clear that He will not change His mind and curse the people of Israel.

So now, the question for myself is, how many time have I place myself in Balaam's situation, letting myself go into circumstances  that would most likely make me sin? Could I be "bought" over to sin if the price is right? The New Testament was full of warning of not to be like Balaam for situation such as this.

Well, to confess, yes, I can be bought to sin and I constantly place myself in situation where I sin, and grief God's heart. This is why I am the second kind of person, I truly believe in God, in the cross, but I still live life as if God does not exist. When people ask me to serve as a leader in church now, I am afraid to do it, because my life is such a bad testimony to anyone.

And what am I doing to get myself out of  this? Haha. At least I am aware that I am such a Balaam, bought over by the world to live a life of sin. I really like to live a life pleasing to God, but the world is forever tempting me, offering more and more to buy me over.

Like what Mahatma Gandhi says, "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians". Out of  the 5 gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke, John & The Christians, the last one is the most read. How much do I say about my Christ?

My prayer for myself and any Christian Brother and Sisters that comes here is that not to be bought over by the world, but to live life pleasing to God.

Tags: christianity

It's Vesak day, and on this wonderful day, i spent it all at home, watching movies & playing WOW.

Sometimes, I think I am the most boring person ever, but to think more deeply into it, really, there isn't much things that interest me, anything that I would rather do then stay home to watch movies & play WOW.

Hahaha. :)





I should get a life....

I want!

Last night at Mambo was fun.

I got to my tipping point and danced like there is no tomorrow.

Haha, and I slept the whole of today away. I only really woke up at 8pm today.

Darn hangover! :(

I don't know why, but I like to associate myself with winners, and I distance myself away from whiners.